I began writing music when I was 16 and began performing as a singer/songwriter at 21. I knew I had a calling but, the truth was, I suffered so much before, during and after most shows.
Here was a common cycle that I lived through for years:
Before a show: Am I good enough? I'm too good for this crowd! I should be famous already!
During a show: They hate me. They're not paying close enough attention. They don't get me.
After a show: I hit a bad note at the show. Everybody noticed. I'm too ashamed to leave my bed.
This couldn't have been fun for my audiences, huh?? Or me!!
There were years when I didn't write music because I thought I wasn't original enough.
I though every song I wrote was my last and that I would never write again.
I thought my music was only good because the band I played with was so good.
I didn't know enough yet I was also scared to learn.
I felt ashamed.
My sense of worth was tied up with my musical abilities. I suffered greatly.
In my mid-30's - yes, after years of this - I decided to take a hiatus and not play again until playing was FUN.
I took about two years off from writing and playing music and I dove into the core issues that were holding me back. I began to approach music from a new place:
Why am I here?
Why do I have a knack from writing music?
What is my relationship with my audience?
What is my work in the world?
I came out of that journey a changed person with a new understand of my role as an artist and how my calling - and each of ours - is to serve others. I began to play concerts again, now with a new understanding of how to serve my audience. I committed to releasing a new song and music video monthly and continued that for over four years. I released a number of albums.
However, while I was working prolifically, I noticed so many other creative people around me continuing to suffer with their own doubts:
Am I good enough
Am I talented enough
Do I deserve to do this?
Does anybody care what I have to say?
What if I find out I'm no good at this?
What if people don't like what I make?
What if I mess up publically?
That's when I realized that I held the medicine for people who wanted to move from fear to creating. I built The Calling, a course designed to give creative people the tools necessary to get through creative projects with as much ease as possible.
I have worked with both hobbyists and professionals in many areas of creative expression, from music to writing to visual arts and more. Here are a sample of projects I've coached people through:
Questions? Email me at julie@juliegeller.com
"Julie helped turn my wannabe writing into reality. My dreams were overwhelming, as were my piles of starts and stops. Julie’s tender heart, systematic approach and step-by-step support led to a steady stride, solutions for blocks, and results! I have discovered ME and found new courage to express Me. I love what’s happening and am having lots of fun, too!"
---Peg Tichacek, Retired Healthcare Executive
"Julie's guidance is very much like her songs: Deep truths, delivered in good measure and very much resonant to the needs of the learner/listener.
I have re-harnessed my creative energies, learned the issues that can get in my way, and acquired multiple practical tools which help keep my own daily creative practice moving."
--Rena Bannett, Visual Artist